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My God-given Chazown (vision) for my life is as follows:
God
has formed me to help heal hurt in others through forming true,
intentional, healthy, Christ-centered relationships, and to share a
passion for God through song and worship.
I want to focus on the first half of my Chazown and how it came about. In working through Chazown,
there are three parts that over lap to form one's Chazown. These parts
are life history/lessons, core values, and spiritual gifts. Looking
back across the time-line of my life, one can see that my life has been
wholly defined by relationships, as are most people's lives. I have
experienced some awesome relationships, some painful relationships, and
worked through broken relationships. Today, there are still broken
relationships that I have to strive daily to work on healing, there are
amazing relationships that are on-going, and there are definitely
relationships to come in the future. God work is evident in each of
these relationships, and it is amazing to see how much He has brought me
through and how He is daily making my life something that He can use
for His Kingdom. To specify my core values, I looked over a list of
words that many views at values in this life, I narrowed down a few that
are near and dear to my life. My top values are compassion, passion,
relationship, worship, and excellence. In developing the last portion
to determining my Chazown, I completed a spiritual gifts test. Musics,
missions, compassion, craftsmanship/artisan, and encouragement are my
top 5 spiritual gifts. Putting my life history together with my core
values and my spiritual gifts brought about a Chazown for my life that
is definitely wholly by relationships and forming friendships though
which the love of Christ can be shared. From this vision for my life, I
have developed the calling God has placed on my heart.
To look back over
my life is a story that still amazes me on a daily basis. I went
through circumstances that I would have never guessed were pointing me
into ministry at the time. For a period of time during my teenage
years, I despised God for how He let people act and how His church
wasn't doing what the Bible called the church to do/be. I went to a
college based solely on the science department and their ability to help
me get into medical/graduate school. I went to Costa Rica for 4 months
to study a beautiful bird and give myself a "worldview" that would make
me a better graduate school applicant. While I was in Costa Rica
though, all the work that God had been doing on my life came to fruition
on the side of Cerro de la Muerte looking out across the Rio Savegre
as it lead into the Pacific Ocean. God spoke to me. He told me how
much He loved me. He told me to trust Him. Since March of 2010, I
have been on an insane journey marked by up and downs. I've realized
how much God loves His church, but the church is still made up of
humans. Humans, Christians, still fail. God isn't the one to blame for
the mistakes humans make. Instead, He is the one to look to for
correction and growth through our mistakes. Through this, I found
relationship with God rather than seeing God as this being who I was to
love and worship but could never confide in. May of 2011, I was
rebaptized, in a river. I had finally come to a realization of how
amazing the redeeming grace and love of God is. Soon there after, I felt
God calling me into ministry. Yes, He was indeed calling a broken 20
year old girl to help further His Kingdom. He wanted me. He loved me.
He was going to use me.
Through a series of events and working with some very integral people, I
am seeing my calling being fulfilled in ways I would have never
imagined. God has called me into a ministry of working with others,
especially
children and teenagers, to form relationships that a based on simply
being friends. Because of my love for Christ, the part of sharing Jesus
will come through in my love and my actions. I don't want to go and
preach to people. I am called to "Go. Love."
Here is where the story really starts to speed up. I met Bob Goff (President/CEO of Restore International
about a month ago. He told a group of student to "go, do something
cool". So, I'm going to do something cool, and I want you to do this
something cool with me. Pray for me. Consider helping me out
financially. During the Summer 2012, I am going to go to Uganda (East
Africa). I know I will be working with some amazing kids/teenagers, but
I have no details other than that. I am talking to Bob in a week to
work out the details of my trip. When I know, I will let you know, but
until then, please be praying for me. Pray for strength, health, and
for God to prepare my heart is unimaginable ways. Pray for the orphans I
will be working with, that God will protect them, for health, and for
restoration.
I am
excited to see the next few pages of the story that God is writing in my
life. He's taking this 21 year old on a journey she never imagined
possible. I am so excited that He has shown me His purpose for my life
at this time, and I cannot wait to share all the details with you.
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